What Defines YOU?

 

Many of you already know that last week I injured myself during "Diane" (21-15-9 deadlifts @155lbs and HSPU's).  Well, after a 3 hour doctor visit and x-rays, I was diagnosed with a herniated disk, which hits a nerve that sends shooting pain all the way from my right lat, under my arm pit and underneath my breast.  Basically, making it feel like my rib is jabbing my lung, causing me to be short of breath.  "WHAT??!!  You've got to be kidding me, right?  The week before the CrossFit Games Open and I injure my back??", was my instant reaction.  "How can this be happening?", I asked myself.  Not only that, but hearing the doctor say "Anytime in the future, that you lift heavy weight overhead or on your back, this could happen."  Ummmmmmmm....that's my JOB!  Needless to say..I was bummed.  

I had been training for the Open for almost 6 months and now it was all over?  MAJOR wake up call....who am I, if I don't compete?  Then my amazingly smart (so he thinks) ;-) boyfriend, hit me with it..."You just have to realize that you may not be the person that can RX everything and be good with it."  HUH??!!  Not RX??  Are you nuts??!!!  It was like he was speaking some other language lol. 

But he was also, although I HATE to admit this... RIGHT.  Yes, I am a competitor, but first and foremost I am a COACH.  I truly didn't become a CrossFit coach to be a Games competitor.  I became a coach, because I LOVE helping and motivating people to reach their goals.  I'm a true believer in the saying "Everything happens for a reason".  Even when it's something that hurts me, emotionally or physically, I still  believe in my heart there's a bigger reason it happened to me.  There was a reason I was married for 15 years - it gave me my amazing son!  There was a reason I got divorced - it allowed me to be the person I was truly meant to be!  With that being said, there is obviously a reason I injured my back, and soon, I'll know what that reason is.  Competitions don't define me.  I define ME.

Since being injured, my class members and clients have been nothing but supportive.  One of them even said "I don't care if you ever pick up a weight again.  I know you CAN, but it doesn't matter to me.  What matters most, is that I KNOW you are there for ME."  Makes me tear up just reading it!!  So, with that, I leave the sadness, and disappointment behind me.  Because, really...what do I have to be sad about?  I can still workout (as soon as I heal, of course....that was for you Adrien!!), I still have the dream job I love, and I can still help people.  That's what it's all about!!  That competitor will always be inside me, but as long as I am living up to my coach "label", I'm good with being exactly that!

***A few SHOUT OUTS!!!****

Thank you, Team mom, for taking me to the doctor and sitting with me for an entire day.  I know you have tons of work to do all the time, so it meant a lot that you stayed to make sure I was ok :)

A BIG Thanks to my #reborn challenge team, PTFO, for sending me that DELICIOUS Edible Arrangement - you're the best!!

Thank you CP, for checking me out and sending me to the doctor!!

Thank you to my babes, for helping me to always see the brighter side of things.  I love you!! 

Thank you to ALL of my friends, family, members and clients for all of your well wishes.  And remember...just because I can't lift something right now, I can still kick your butts in class :)

XOXOXO-

coach Aggie

"Strong is the New Sexy"